Monday, December 15, 2014

November review and December goals

November Review:

Halfway through December and here I am with a post partially titled "November review". Pft. Have to give myself a virtual upper cut for being particularly slack on the review department.  Making it a soft uppercut as I was distracted by the knowledge I might have to go under the knife to deal with my Ascending Aortic Aneurysm.

Live:

  • Success on satelliting into Auckland Main Event. Lasted until 4 hands into day 4. About 78th out of 225 entrants.
  • Did not cash in any $100 tournaments
  • Did have a surplus mega satellite ticket that I sold
  • Overall down for the month live
Online:
  • played  tournaments as per my specified goals for November
  • Failed to do any meaningful hand history reviews. Must do better. Another virtual uppercut required. No real excuse for not doing this.  
Study:
  • Mostly achieved
  • Failed to n one day per week,
  • Failed to read and process 20 pages of Matthew Janda's "Applications of No-Limit Hold'em" per week. Managed to get through about 50 pages for November. I view this as a partial success as I find it hard to get through his book. 

December Goals:

Live:
  • Cash in 3 tournaments for December
Online:
  • Same as for November
  • Play big $4.40, Turbo $7.50 four to five times per week. Mix in some $3.50 45 seat SNGs as well as some of the tournaments that contribute to the Pokerstars ANZ Tournament Leader Board (providing live tournament play does not conflict)
  • For tournaments where I get into top 5% perform hand history reviews some time in the 48 hours following the tournament
Study:
  • On three days per week watch a minimum of two hours worth of videos
  • Watch EPT live stream from EPT prague
  • Post a minimum of two hands per month to Tournament Poker Edge (TPE) MTT Strategy review forum. Stretch goal is to post four hands per month. 
  •  read and process 60 pages of Matthew Janda's "Applications of No-Limit Hold'em". Update work-in-progress mind map for this book so as to more deeply process the material.

Sunday, December 14, 2014

One millimetre...

The results of my CT angiography are in. And my ascending aorta measurs 49mm...with my cardiologists threshold for recommending repair one millimetre greater at 50mm... It seems with my extra risk factors. bicuspid valve and family history of abdominal aortic anuerysm, the threshold is a bit lower than for other people.

On the bright side, while there is some very mild atheroma in my cardiac arteries, on the scale of things to worry about, it is a distant third behind my aortic aneurysm and (very intermittent) ?atrial fibrillation.  No need for stents.

Warned against performing exercises that raise blood pressure. Weight lifting is out. And this includes exercises like push ups.... Which is a pity as I'd been following the Ted Talk about tiny habits and had built up the number of pushups I could do to 55 over a 2 month period... Walking, running, cycling and swimming all got the cardiologist tick of approval so I'll have to look at what I can incorporate into my daily / weekly routines.



Monday, December 1, 2014

A Moment of Serendipity

My plan for the week after the Auckland main event was to write a blog post about my experience in the main event.

However, the events of  Tuesday night, Nov 25th, derailed all my motivation with respect to blogging about poker, with the events percolating through my brain over the days since Tuesday likely to be affecting my poker play for a while, so I'll write about my Tuesday night experience instead.

On Tuesday evening I had an appointment with a cardiologist to discuss an episode of arhythmia (irregular heartbeat) that I had experienced in mid-October. I had had an episode of arhythmia lasting about 30 minutes, during which time I had found it hard to walk up a hill that I normall take with ease. I had done a little bit of googling and had self-diagnosed as Paroxysmal Tachycardia - which seemed to be reasonably benign in the scheme of things.

The cardiologist had requested that I have an echocardiogram immediately prior to my appointment with him. When I viewed the price tag associated with the procedure, one of the thoughts that went through my mind was that I hoped this procedure wasn't just a way for the cardiologist to pump up his income. For a fourty minute procedure, it seemed to be expensive.

Echocardiogram done, ECG with cardiologist's nurse done. Into the appointment to discuss my arhythmia. Or so I thought. He led off by asking whether the lady who had performed the echocardiogram had discussed the findings and when I said "No", he then informed me that while the Echo had been scheduled to check the Atria of my heart out as he suspected Atrial Fibrillation, in a moment of serendipity, they had found I had a bicuspid Aortic Valve. Plus an Aortic Aneurysm. That, at 5 cm, was, in his opinion, probably right on the cusp of requiring an operation in the near future.  It would appear that the money spent on the echocardiogram was money well spent....

When your specialist's body language has the following elements - anxious, concerned expression, arms clasped in a protective fashion across his chest, eyes in the main looking down with only occasional eye contact, body position in general looking uncomfortable - it is difficult to remain fully focussed on what he is saying. While I felt calm in a surreal way during the appointment, in retrospect I wondered whether he thought he was informing his patient that his patient was a "dead man walking".

At one point in our meeting he was looking for the results of blood tests ordered by my GP. I said to him that my GP had told me that "he was jealous of my blood test results". He then muttered "Well, he won't be jealous of your echo". When I related this tale to my GP, my GP laughed out loud... luckily we both saw the macabre funny side of it.

The next steps in this journey will be to have a CT coronary angiogram, with a follow-up visit to the cardiologist shortly thereafter. Normally he would have requested a MRI as the next step. I'll include the part of his letter to my GP that summarizes the current status of this particular journey.

This is a very significant finding. Bicuspid aortic valves are the most common congenital anomaly. Bicuspid aortic valves can be familial and are associated with thoracic aortic root dilatation and a high risk of aortic rupture. The usual indication for surgery for a thoracic aortic aneurysm is a 55mm dimension but for a bicuspid valve with high risk features the indication is 50mm which is what has been measured on the echo. In addition, Hamish has a family history of abdominal aortic aneurysm. This is a risk factor.

It is imperative that we image the thoracic aorta more fully either with a CT scan or with an MRI scan. Whilst we would normally undertake an MRI scan because of the absence of radiation, a CT scan gives us the option of imaging the coronary arteries. Because it is possible that aortic surgery may be required sooner rather than later I think a scan of the CT thoracic aorta and combined with a CT angiogram is the best first investigation.

I have explained to Hamish that he may very well need thoracic aortic surgery in the near future. This is major surgery but once the dimensions reach surgical indication the alternative risk is that of thoracic aortic rupture and sudden death.

If we are not yet at surgical dimension we really want to delay progression of the aortic root dilatation. The two drugs that have been shown in clinical trials to achieve this are beta-blockers and losartan. Because of the probable paroxysmal atrial fibrillation it makes sense to use a beta-blocker in the first instance as this may provide rate control and also reduce the progression of aortic root dilatation. I have warned Hamish of beta-blocker side effects including fatigue, lethargy, dyspnoea, wheeze and occasionally impotence. These side effects may improve over time"

Because bicuspid aortic valves can be familial I'm now in the position of having to let my sons know that they will have to have echocardiograms to check whether they too have bicuspid aortic valves or not. Bicuspid aortic valves, along with other risks, from my reading of various articles, appear to carry about a 45% risk of developing Aortopathy such as mine. With one theory being that the changed haemodynamic flow produces different forces on the aorta when compared with the haemodynamic flow through normal tricuspid valves. And another being that there is a genetic weakness with respect to the aorta wall's connective tissue leading to a tendency for the aorta to dilate. Regardless of which theory may be correct, if either of my sons are found to have bicuspid aortic valves, they will likely have to have follow up echocardiograms at regular intervals to see whether they are developing cardiovascular issues that require intervention.

Seems like, just to be on the safe side,  I need to have my affairs in order sooner rather than later. For the week after getting this serendiptious news, I continued to play poker, even less well than normal,  as a way of distracting myself from this issue, However, today I have found that, while my desire to self-educate was low for most of the past week, I've found I've come back to watching poker videos today. Which I view as a good thing.

In the meantime, CT angiography scheduled for December 3rd, with follow up appointment with cardiologist on December 8th.


Saturday, November 15, 2014

A Special Shared Father and Son moment

Last night my #1 son (SN1), age 19, discovered an outer threshold for his alcohol tolerance.

Around midnight last night, while I'm still playing internet poker on my computer, SN1 comes into my room, and says something along the lines of "I'm not feeling well. Do you mind if I sleep in here a bit until you are ready to go to bed? I think I drunk a little too much". This is very unusual. Never happened before. Teenage son interacting in this manner with Father at midnight after returning from local (walking distance) party.

SN1 settles into bed with sheet over eyes.... About 45 mins later movement on the bed, Scared, urgent look on his face. Appropriate bowl given to son and up comes some of last night's dinner, after which he settles back down to sleep. Around 2:00am I bust out of last internet poker tournament and am ready for bed. SN1 dead to world after throwing up episode.

Give up trying to rouse him and decide to sleep in SN1's bed.

Woken by constant buzzing around 07:00am from text's on SN1's phone so toodle back to my room where I have one of those conversations you don't really want to have.

SN1: "Can you get me some paper towels?"
Me: "Why?"
SN1: "I've thrown up on your bed."

I look closer. SN1 has head on my pillow and at far end of pillow is pile of vomit, with SN1's face about 5cm from it. He then points at duvet cover, where another pile of vomit sits and says "I don't know how that got there".  (This comment, from someone who is claiming that their lowest grade in their first year university engineering course is an A-, makes me wonder at how high the bar is set for grades at his university....)

I look at bowl by side of bed. A gleaming, pretty, empty bowl it is. Freshly cleaned and ready to catch stomach contents....

He confessed to consuming 6 diesel rtds. Claims there are 1.8 std drinks per rtd. Jeepers.

SN1 has now toodled off to his nice clean bed. His final words being "Can you lecture me later when I'm feeling better"

This is the first time he has been drunk and vomited in the home environment...... (at least while I've been around at the same time)...<sigh>

Monday, November 3, 2014

Labels, Lack of Work Ethic and a twelve month horizon

Often, during conversation at live poker tables, I am asked what I do for an occupation. In the first half of the year the answer provided was along the lines of "Unemployed Project Manager".  With the passage of time, I have become uncomfortable with that answer. I have no desire at this point in time to return to employment as a Project Manager, nor any desire, or immediate need, to gain an income by way of employment.  The need for an income diminished when, shortly after jumping ruts back to New Zealand in March 2013, my father died at the fairly ripe old age of 84. After it became clear I was going to receive a modest inheritance, my desire and drive for finding another job fell off a cliff. In the last little while, whenever I have examined my reaction to self labeling as "Unemployed", I have felt that the term "Unemployed" is now an incorrect description of my work status. I have no desire to be employed in a formal sense and have started to be become aware that I am more comfortable with the label "Retired" or "Recreational Poker Player".  Although at least one player at the tables thought my occupation was that of "roading contractor". Unfortunately I never quizzed him as to why he saw me in that light.

With 20 months now having passed since I last worked, and about 12 months having passed since I last applied for a job, with my current age of 55, my expectation is that if I attempted to find another role as a Project Manager, it wouldn't be a happening thing.So can I make any money as a poker player?

I've asked myself the question of whether I could apply the label of "Professional Poker Player" given my current skills, ability and results? The answer is, sadly, no. I am just not good enough at this point in time. Bucket list wise, becoming a "Professional Poker Player" is pretty much one of the major items I would like to achieve over the next 5 to 10 years and to move towards that goal I need to change the way I have been working away from the tables.

As I looked back at some of the goals I have publicly documented on my pokerstrategy blog , I realized I stopped posting goals on that blog due to my failure to complete many of the tasks I set myself. I didn't like the feeling of public failure and embarrassment that accompanied the failure to hit many of my study goals.  However, when I reviewed the amount of work I put in during the months I was posting goals compared to the amount of work I put in over the last several months, I have found that I was putting more work into my game in  those months I had publicly stated goals than I am now. In other words, even though I would fail to complete a lot of the work I had set myself for a month, the mere fact I had put some goals up meant that I was much more likely to do some work, however small that amount of work was. The conclusion I have reached is that I need to go back to publicly stating work goals for a while and see whether the correlation of publicly stating goals with increased effort still holds.

Goals tor the next month:

Online:
  •  play big $4.40, Turbo 7.50 four to five times per week. Mix in some $3.50 45 seat SNGs as well as some of the tournaments that contribute to the Pokerstars ANZ Tournament Leader Board (providing live tournament play does not conflict)
  • For tournaments where I get into top 5% perform hand history reviews some time in the 48 hours following the tournament
Live:
  • Aim to satellite into Auckland NZPT November main event (currently hold three $520 mega satellite tickets which were won via feeder satellite events.  The casino allows for a mixture of $520 satellite tickets and cash to be swapped for a main event ticket. I will continue to play in feeder satellite events with the hope of getting enough tickets for a main event ticket and if not successful either play in the mega satellites that are scheduled almost nightly in the week prior to the main event)
  • Cash in several $100 tournaments
Study:
  • Online hand history reviews as noted above
  • Load Tournament Poker Edge videos to ipad. Obtain carry bag for ipad. Take ipad with me to Casino and watch videos in period between registering for live events and live event starting. (There is a lot of dead wait time at the Casino so this will be a way of obtaining some value from that dead time)
  • On three days per week watch a minimum of two hours worth of videos
  • Post a minimum of two hands per month to Tournament Poker Edge (TPE) MTT Strategy review forum. Stretch goal is to post four hands per month. 
  • On one day per week, read and process 20 pages of Matthew Janda's "Applications of No-Limit Hold'em". Update work-in-progress mind map for this book so as to more deeply process the material.

Goals for the next 12 months:
Online:
  • Move from a losing player to a winning player. Success would be measured over the last 6 months results of the 12 month period. Aim to review results over May-October 2015 in November 2015 and if the bankroll is higher in October than May then that will be the measure of success
Live:
  • Become profitable in the live tournament environment. 
  • If bankroll increases by more than $10,000 then start turning my attention to live cash games. Until then only play live tournaments
Study:
  • Post hands for discussion on TPE with a minimum of 8 hands per month to be posted
  • Hand History review at least once per month
  • Acquire a coach in Jan or Feb 2015 for a short period of concentrated study
  • As per Andrew Brokos's recommendation, obtain a short membership to Runitonce.com and watch Ben Sulsky's and Brian Rast's videos
Notes:
  •  Acquired Janda's book at the start of this year (2014) and have made several attempts to read all the way through. Each of my attempts has petered out somewhere the 100 and 120 page mark, despite my recognition there is some extremely valuable content in this book. While the content is valuable, I suspect Janda has a brain the size of a large planet and often times is writing for other big brained folk. I find his writing style induces my feeble brain to rebel at the effort to hold onto and process many of the concepts Janda introduces without significant, painful, mental effort. The way I am going to try to carrot and stick myself into completing the book is to publicly state I am going to work on the book (the stick) and treat myself to an inappropriate sensory treat if I meet my Janda goal for the month (the carrot). The ultimate aim is to work through the book over a lengthy period and end up with a mind map that can be used as a reference / refresher
  • After posting several scenarios to TPE's MTT strategy forum I have found that much benefit is to be derived from the posting process. Having to sit at my PC and write the scenario out as clearly as possible has helped me to identify and deal with similar scenarios, particularly when playing in live tournaments.





Thursday, January 30, 2014

More of a Rutjumper than a lazy poker player

RutJumping: The act of making a large life change by way of changing  profession, or place of work, or city/country of residence. Term coined by MD Wah

Over the course of my life I've jumped ruts a number of times. With the last major rut jump being that of jumping the ditch (aka the Tasman sea) and moved back to Auckland from Sydney in March 2013. At the same time moving from employed status to unemployed.

The options when looking at whether you should jump ruts seem to be:

1) staying in your rut and putting up with it
2) wall papering your rut to make it more enjoyable to live in. An option I've been told about, if you have a mid-life crisis which is causing you to be unhappy with your rut, is to use the "shiny red convertible" wall-paper, or the optional "younger mistress" model of wall-paper. (Both options have been put up for my consideration by a friend who, - as an aside - settled on his 2012 new years resolution in June 2012. His resolution for 2012 was to get a mistress. Mission Unaccomplished so far.)
3) popping your head up above your rut and checking out whether the grass is greener in another rut, and deliberately looking at slum-ruts to make yourself feel better about your own rut, and then choosing to stay where you are.
4) Jumping out of your rut and starting anew - either in a new location or a new career or whatever

My main reason for jumping out of my Sydney rut was to have more time with my (then) 15 and 17 year old sons... I had been missing them over the past couple of years and not seeing nearly enough of them so took a punt and jumped....

 Within a month of jumping, in April 2013, my father passed away at the age of 84 years.  He was good enough to include me in his will, along with my two siblings. At that point in time, buffered with the knowledge I had a modest inheritance coming my way within a year or so,  I decided to have a crack at making wall papering my rut with poker my full-time pass time. I've kept an eye on the job market from time to time, and have applied for three jobs over the past 10 months or so. With a "Do Not Pass Go" result from each of my job applications, I've kept myself occupied with learning and playing poker. (Applying for three jobs in a ten month period is, upon  reflection, a pretty slack effort. Must be enjoying the poker experience...)

My first experience with poker began in May 2012 at Pokerstars. Mainly as a recreational activity at night after work. However the addictive element to my personality has become attached to the buzz of the gamble, and I've been playing (and losing - sorry - I mean investing in my poker education) pretty much ever since. I viewed the $'s lost as being justified though as the cost for the poker wallpaper was considerably less than that for the "shiny red convertible" and "the younger mistress" brands...

While the period from May 2012 to March 2013 was associated with playing low-stakes poker tournaments after work, I never really put any time into any poker self-education or analysis. And during that period, the poker I was playing was a recreational pursuit, with the amount at risk in any given time-period being a small percentage of my take home income. And that was fine. I was paying to be entertained, with the hope of making a large cash at some point. Once I had some more time on my hands post March 2013, and started digging deeper into the reasons why I was a losing tournament poker on Pokerstars, I realized I needed to spend time on self-education and analysis.

 In future posts I'll be reviewing some of the books I've read, videos I've watched, software tools I've tried out, and poker sites I've visited. Hopefully any reader will get something out of the reviews. The main benefit I'll get will be a deeper engagement with the material, and, if all goes to plan, the information will be more accessible when I need it most. I'll also experiment with google ad words and become an Amazon associate just in case there is a chance that some ads can supplement the drain on my wallet that being out of work and playing poker full-time has led to. If there is any benefit to any reader and you do end up clicking through to Amazon and buy stuff, or click on any google ads then  thank you in advance.
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This is the 3rd blog I've put up.  With the first site, I flirted with the idea of being a lazy poker player (based on some of the ideas in "The Lazy Project Manager". But realized that there is considerable work required to becoming a winning poker player (at least for me...). I've retired that blog site as I've not been able to tie the ideas in that book to my journey so far. The second blog site is still live and is at pokerstrategy.com. I'll leave that one live for now. The main reason for starting this site is that pokerstrategy's posting rules do not allow the posting of links to other poker training sites. During my poker journey I've found some useful information at other training sites and wish to discuss that information when I post. Hence the creation of this blog.